the time in between

First, I googled Ipad issues and got it back working. Whew… I really didn’t want that expense right now.  If it happens to you, you press both the home button and the power button simultaneously and wait for the apple icon to appear. It actually worked and I’m using it again with no apparent issues.

The time in between.

It’s a weird place as a cancer patient to not be in treatment and yet still be a cancer patient. I am very grateful to have this time off all chemotherapies and even Zometa. But I still have Myeloma. It’s not going to just go away or even get cured. It’s just there lurking.  So, I certainly think about it but not obsessively. When I was first diagnosed I obsessed and even well into my treatments after my first relapse I still obsessively thought about Myeloma. So now, I do think about it and what it means just not ALL the time. It’s nice to have the space in between to breathe and live.  I’m trying to use this time to get stronger by going to the gym and of course, still walking. Plus, working on different projects to fill my time.

But, it’s still a place in between treatments and no treatment and eventually treatment again.  I’m pretty sure everyone who has cancer whether it’s been cured or it is ongoing   can relate to how do we deal with the time in between those treatments.  I try and enjoy every day no matter what. I try and stay positive about life issues no matter what. Sure, I still get upset at the whole political thing but there’s not much I can change about that. But I can change my daily routines and strive to be better mentally prepared and emotionally when the time comes to resume treatment.

I remember those first 17 radiation treatments. Every day except weekends. I certainly was on auto pilot. I didn’t go out much or do much. I was depressed and didn’t feel well. It was my family that kept things going and I just glided. I think it was that way all the way up to my Stem Cell Transplant.  It was a rough time and the time in between was not fun, interesting or positive. It was difficult, dark and depressing.  Looking back I just wasn’t dealing with things and now I can say, I’ve learned a lot and come a long way in how I deal with my cancer.  But, the time in between has gotten better, lighter and brighter.

So even if it’s a  week between chemo appointments or one month or one year, enjoy the time in between as best you can.

 

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